From the Desk of...Sir Hustle
An Account from Sir Hustle:
My first experience in BDSM was with a masochist named Desiree. I was totally green to the scene and had no idea what the terms sadist nor masochist meant. I just thought she liked it rough and this was the first time I felt comfortable going wild with a chick. She taught me a lot, showed me how a female could almost go into a trance while receiving the pain she desired.
We started fucking wildly from the first time we had relations. Everything from Hair pulling, ass smacking, extreme throat fucking, to nipple training with rubber bands and clothespins. Desiree was the one to first hand me a crop to use on her. The sex was next level; I felt alive and very much empowered to do what the fuck I wanted when the fuck I wanted at anytime...up to a point.
In our 2nd month of relating she expressed how she was abused as a child by a relative and taken advantage of sexually. I took the information in stride and empathized as she communicated that this new information shouldn't detour me from being rough and disciplining her the way she desperately needed. The relationship came to a halt when she wanted me to smack her face and to use a tv antenna across her ass. In hindsight I was embarrassed to admit that I was not ready for that kind of extreme play. It shocked me even after weeks of the things we had done before.
This "request" made me very uneasy. I'm a big ass black dude *laughing* (6'4 300 +) so thoughts of going to jail immediately came to mind if this bitch decided to flip the script on me. I reconciled that to the "trust" not being enough from my side to go further.
It's unfortunate sexually and domination wise that relationship was one I will always wonder how far we could have went...I wasn't informed enough or mature enough back then to play like she needed.
That was many years ago, I have since totally embraced my sadistic element. I leave my mark on every sub I have had since with my leather strap..my personal favorite, the crop, my bamboo cane, and bare hand.
I have a desire to see tears from time to time and to push limits as it makes my dick almost granite to hear her screams and surrender.